.Tuesday, October 27, 2009 ' 11:35 pm Y
Life is so unfair . ): Why are all of my close friends or family members siding with SJH♥ rather then me ? For eg , Samantha , Bella , Ahboy, Rachel , Jeremy, Ann chen , My sister , Mparents , My cousins and even my aunties and uncles ? -_-"Can't you all , tell that i have a ANGEL FACE compared to HIM ? :PI really never titi bully him ley. Is he bully me lo x:Can ask SJH♥ to verify(:Haha.
.Thursday, October 22, 2009 ' 11:36 pm Y
A picture speak a thousand words.
But no amount of words can describe how much i missed you.
I put your picture as my screen saver at my phone , and each time i see it , i really feel that you are still with us . But, i cant run away from the fact that you are gone .
Doing bone scan for people today, watching number of elderly man around your age, i pondered to myself . what will you be doing now, if you are still with us ?
Nobody will ever understand this heartaching i felt each and every moment i think of you.
I really dont wanna lose you, and till now i just cant totally accept that you are gone .
i really missed you alot .
.Monday, October 19, 2009 ' 9:57 am Y
19th marks today, a month since you left. We are still trying to accept the fact that you are gone .
Ah ma cries and couldn't bring herself to sleep. Problems are just one after another . Sigh. ><" Every part of the house, there are bits and pieces of memories left . It feels as if you haven't left . Everything happened just so sudden, how can we accept the fact of losing you? Everything just seems like yesterday. I can still imagine you walking around smiling and chatting to us. ):Without you in the house, it just seems so quiet everyday. Everything felt so weird without you. Sigh.One day, humans will leave, but what left with us are memories that can never be taken away. I watch the vcd over and over again, next year cny everything will be different because there won't be you with us anymore .
.Sunday, October 18, 2009 ' 10:08 pm Y
" Time will not stop and wait for anyone, cherish the people around you . " It take time to slowly realise what do we really want , and want to acheive at the end of the day.
.Saturday, October 17, 2009 ' 9:43 pm Y
Spend quality time with family members . (:
Happy day, but turned out a little awful . -_-"
Sometimes, humans are having bad mood, but what is the right way to handle it ?
I cant give the right answer to it neither because i am stubborn.
.Monday, October 12, 2009 ' 4:00 pm Y
Meet up with Rachel and Javier last night for K - session. Together with SJH(: ♥
First time over cash studio, i like the ambience over there , but however still prefer teo heng . LOL ! :p
Went to mac for supper after 3 hours of K . And Rachel , Javier and Sjh they are all Dota-addictive . -.-
I thought they were just disturbing me , mentioning to dota when they are home . :/
Didn't expect it to be real . :s
Lol, great day. ♥♥
Next meet up, chomp chomp.(:
Rachel had a pact with me, AWESOMEEEE(:
times flies, in a week time, it will be a month since you left us .i can still feel the pain etched in my heart .i wish you could have return to my all my missed calls made .i miss you.
.Saturday, October 03, 2009 ' 8:33 am Y
" Goodbye September "
What hurts the most is seeing your closest kin, and your loved ones leaving the world and they are separated from you forever .
I will never forget the day at your bedside, when we kept calling out to you.
Holding your hands, telling you to wake up. And the moment you left us at 4.14am.
Death have bring you away from us, to another world where you will belong .
I wondered to myself ever since you left, where will humans go after they left ? Can you still hear us telling you our inner feelings in our heart ? Every single days at your wake, looking in the coffin . I hope you will wake up.
I have so much left undone, and unsaid to you.
I didn't have the chance to repay you, there only regrets left .
Why didnt you wait for me to finish taking my licence ? I told you i will want to drive you out when i complete my tp ? Didn't you say , okay you will wait and sit my car ?
I thought we still have time together, i thought you will see me through my marriage .
You never let us know when you are unwell . You are just that strong and stubborn. Why didn't you tell us you had a heart attack in the morning ? Sigh.
I still remember when we were young, you brought us to your work place . Seeing you carrying sacks of rices weighing more than 80kg and you carrying more than 100 sacks a day at your shoulders .
I still do remember you coming to fetch me home from childcare and school bus everyday. You never failed to be late because you know that i am afraid of sitting the lift alone .
After you left us, each time i passed by the void deck you sat down and smoked . i thought of you .
Each time i sit the lift, i missed you there with me .
Each time i go ahma house, i think of you even deeply.
There nobody to ask if i want " bee hoon " anymore . I can never hear you say that i am your " kim soon " at chinese new year anymore .
I can never hear your dragging of footsteps along the corridoor anymore , when we know that you're home .
Each time ahma crys and stare into space , and when she is talking about you. The misses just grew stronger.
Do you know how much we loved you ?
You are the best ah gong to me .
And i really really love you alot .
You never know how much i missed you now.
